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Today was my cousin's reception-thing. She got married last November in Japan, and since all of her relatives are too poor to go the wedding in Japan, she had her "wedding reception" here in Chicago~ So all the crazy Japanese relatives (who I guess are my relatives now) were here. bahahaha I love them.

ANYWAY, the point of this post was to tell you the creepy things that happened to me today and yesterday!

Yesterday, I was working for my aunt for this party she was having. So a bunch of my relatives and Japanese relatives and her blood relatives (she's my aunt by law.) So all her family from Missouri and Texas were here and so we were meeting them and whatever. As we were inside giving ourselves minor panic attacks because of my crazy aunt, all her cute nephews walked in (and they're so tall too! like, ZOMFG.) And so after we were done and I was waiting for the parental unit to give me a lift home, I was reading and listening to 21CBD (<33) and one of the cute Texas relatives walks in! i r pleased. So we chatted for a bit~ He asked me what book I was reading and I told him and he was asked me what I was listening to and told him. and had a fangirl right there. you know you love me.

SO THEN TODAY, when I was at the wedding, one of the other cousins was like, checkin' me out the whole time! Prolly because I didn't look like a bum like yesterday. XD

I'M A CLASSY INDIVIDUAL.

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Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.

I'm really confused.
I don't know what to do.
I don't wanna do anything lately except hang out with my friends.

But who am I to say whether or not they're friends?

I never know who does or does not like me because people are so fake. Why should I bother trying to find out if they're not willing to put in the effort of being a friend?

I mean, most of the people who follow me on twitter aren't friends. I wouldn't even consider most of my friends on Facebook friends of mine, tbh.

I just like attention I guess. I like having people pay attention to me.

Which is why I think I might delete my twitter. >.< and my facebook.

i don't know. I just want people to act like friends rather than use a networking site to say it.

And the thing that kills me about my twitter is the fact that I follow people I consider friends, but they don't follow me back. It makes me feel like someone who just latches on the groups of actual friends and tries to impress them.

I always feel like this. I hate it.

Um.

This is just a post asking if anyone reads this.
Or anyone important reads this.

Comment if you do read it.
If you don't wanna comment, just send me a fbook/twitter message. AIM and MSN are good too.

I just need somewhere to vent. >.>

I thought I found someone

I have been full-on poseur mode for the past few days. Listening to old school TAI... and FOB, all Midtown. I am now dedicated to finding all the Midtown and having them on iTunes. My local record store does not have any of their albums and cannot order them for me because of the lack of them being made anymore.. They're a defunct band, why would they still have them on the shelves?

In other news, I'm going to see The Academy Is... on Friday at Six Flags Great America. I'm super excited, because what if I meet William Beckett? That would be so effin' epic. 8D Even if I don't get to meet him, it'll be my first concert this year. :O which is disturbing. I really hope I go to Warped/Blink reunion tour. Warped because, you know, it's Warped, and Blink because P!ATD (ALL HAIL THE EXCLAMATION POINT) and FOB are gonna be there.

I've been reading the 12 chapters of Midnight Sun that Steph Meyer put up on her website. It's a lot better than Twilight and New Moon. About on the same level as Eclipse and Breaking Dawn.

OH and I met John Green. I told him that Alaska was my favorite book and he said "Even more than Twilight?" and I rolled my eyes and said "Please. That book was so bad." XD And he gave us party blowers that he had signed. I'd put in a picture, but I can't find my camera and it would take too much effort to find it. So :P on you. He also signed my book. I would've posed for pictures, but they didn't have enough time. ): A bunch of other people were, I just should've.

And I'm loving Disney movie music right now. My favorite movies with songs from Disney are Hercules and The Little Mermaid. And maybe Beauty and the Beast, although I like that a lot as a movie too. (:

So I don't bore you anymore, here's to you Gabe Saporta. I also don't know why it's to you.

PREORDER YOUR HOT MESS, BEE TEE DUBS.

<3 love you kids.

Trainwreck

God am I confused. Ugh.. I don't even know anymore about anything. Weird dreams and flirting girls are blurring my mind about who I actually like, someone who seems nice enough, or someone I've never talked to face to face. The idea of a person. They're both friends, so I don't want to not be friends with either of them.

I don't wanna wreck my life, basically.

>.<
-sigh-
I guess you can just take away from this post that I suck.

Welcome back

so haaaaay.

sorry I abandoned you for so long. :(

I just was doing ~stuff

most of that ~stuff involved Freshman Connection and Neopets.

PROUD MOMENTS WORLD. PROUD MOMENTS.

But really, I've been doing a lot at my future high school (which no, I am not revealing on the internet. I'm not stupid.) and I've been doing a lot online that didn't include this.

But basically, in closing, hope you had a great Canada Day, have a great 4th of July, and have fun this summer/winter thing.

8D