I apologize

for all the whining.

I'm not trying to be such a whiner. I'm not trying to make you have sympathy for me. I just need something to let my feelings out on to without getting bashed.

I'm going to whine some more. If you want to read, go ahead but no one's forcing you.

"I constantly feel alone lately. Maybe it's just my stir-craziness, my wanting to see my friends again, my not going anywhere for the holidays. I feel like I belong in my family sometimes, even though I couldn't imagine myself anywhere else. There's a lot of secreting going on, and I'm not a big fan of secrets.

All the people I know seem to be drifting away from me. People seem to magnify their own feelings and problems to make yours less significant.

I don't want to seem like a poser, being all whiny and whatnot. If you think that, then stop reading my blog after this post. It's not my problem. I hope you guys think I have real feelings." - 12/2/2009